I feel like i'm going back to my old ways.



but i like being able to feel something. i dont wanna lose feeling again.
make it stop.

-ceesawyou

going in deep there's an emotion rarely seen;
while the surface is filled with specks of passion
the blood runs through and washes away the gaps,
filling them up with uncertainties
as you breathe..

as you breathe,
all i can do is rhythmically beat my heart with yours..
perhaps there's waves of passion..
perhaps ours could meet..
as you breathe,
i watch you calmly sleep as our skins touch
i become calm, eternally..

but this reality is just a dream,
wherein your dreams are where i wanna be..
something's never gonna change, that if broken,
ironically my heart breaks as yours hardens.
if broken,
the blood-filled gaps will forever disappear,

making me incomplete.

maybe this chance is what i need..
to grow. to love. to unlove.
maybe this chance is what i need..
to love again.

my blood runs through my veins,
i see pulses of hardships
spectacles of emotions
all emanating from one single thing;

my heart. you.


sigh.*
-ceesawyou